well, are you?

are you happy?

good question, that. and, instead of answering directly, i just sort of wept on my end of the world.

ridiculous, isn't it?

i'd like to think i can answer that 'yes' sometimes, but i don't know that i can. i'm not really anything at the moment. not numb, just...not anything. so, why the crying?

i don't know.

there were many questions asked that i wanted to answer, and just couldn't. there were an equal amount of questions asked that i don't know that i really wanted the answers for, either. things that left me green-eyed and grumpy...remember, always remembering--things change.

the world keeps spinning even if i stay in one place.